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... hunger...


I think it took a bit. There have been many times when I thought I needed extra help. Well, you know, hand - spiritual inspiration. Are not we all looking for something? I think today that calls Bridget Jones's syndrome - no, not to get drunk or kilograms to count. But for the purpose of finding the missing part in our lives. The feeling as you are on the boat in the sea.
 
I am like a ship looking for any purpose on the coast. Hoping that the next coast would be THE ONLY ONE! I call it Disney's syndrome. Foolish tales from young age searching for - "happily ever after" with included a specific menu to your daily list. My garcon du jour!
 
Todays shaved head, a tattooed, impossibly muscular guy, I found him lying around the corner of a nightclub, looking for a young baby. He was perfect for my hunger. After a few irreducible glances on his side (okay, okay, maybe I spend half a night by rubbing the hole in the wall and gazing at him) (I have to attract someone's attention), I was thinking that I'm doing things old-fashioned. 
I waited for him to go to the toilet - and carefully stood up next to his free urinal, I looked at him, my gaze was caught. "You're fast," he said with a low voice. "I live nearby," he said, which meant there was no need for any introductions and rituals, you get me! 
After walking to his place, who seemed to have eternity, understood - in the cold night, the air and the mutual desire to use each other as soon as possible and empty the luggage ... 
It was just a matter of 30 seconds to throw off all the clothes. My hunger was already fading away when he broke me on the floor with a brutal throw on the knees and pressing my head on the bed. That was exactly what I wanted. This hunger wanted to be satisfied. I have not hunted anymore - I was a prey - I was the one who slaughtered. I scrambled there to feel him, to feel his power. Use me.
I needed to feel the pain, it was part of hunger - the desire to be scared, to be shattered deeper. It takes the hunger away...
I don’t remember when I left him. I remember the sense of satisfaction, loneliness, pain, dirt, nausea, but with a smile - satisfied ...
Location: Londonas, Jungtinė Karalystė

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